A Fairy!

I did it! I can't believe it! I saw a real true water fairy today! I don't know how, I guess my powers must be growing a little more than I have thought. This si so excciting, although it didn't look like what I'd imagine it'd be...

relationships

YOu know, there is something I cannot figure out. If I am your gf, why are there rules? Why can I only talk to you at certain times, and why can't I send things to you anytime I want? YOu need to tell her, and soon...this is getting EXTREMELY old....and obey? well fuck you too! I don't Obey anyone, I respect you, don't lose it over something so stupid.

a different kind of pain

You know, I figured that it would be empty, this house I am in. With my grandmother being gone and all, but I never thought I would feel so lonely here, the place where all my best memories and dreams are hung on the walls. It's been ten years since she's passed, and you know, this house still isn't the same. I miss her, but yet don't. It's the weirdest feeling I've felt in a very long time.
p.s. i still don't want to go to mexico.

decisions

I love him, I really do. He wants us to move to Mexico, and stay, make a life together there. I don't want to go. Plain and simple. When love is involved you do things that may not be so pleasant, I mean, I don't mind going for afew months, or even on vacations, but to stay..? no I don't think so. I need my family still, and it's crazy as much as I didn't want to come back, I am afraid to leave again, and all this stupid crap with my registration is rediculous. I don't want to go through all the horse shit again. He has all kinds of contacts down there, and it would be good for his line of work, it's in san miguel a great art community. But what about me? What am I going to do? I like art, not too sure if I want to be that involved with it, but I can't sit on my ass all day long, or party all night either. Again I ask, What about me?