Well, its 2:18 am and I'm still not asleep. I'm sitting here holding my pink and white unicorn. She's beautiful, reminds me of my sister so much. she makes me feel close to her. I'm thinking way too much today. I'm missing my mom and dad even more. Some guy came in the store today that looked and acted just like my dad, it made me start thinking about him, and induced a whole plethora of memories. My fifth birthday, sheba, the bear, how much he loves me and all the pain i've put him through, the things I said, the way I behaved, and I wonder if he still holds those things against me, i don't ever think I told him I am sorry...maybe I sould call and do just that, better late than never....right? God, I wish I could find some way to have my family out here, and not feel so homesick.
Awake
I lay here awake,
entertained with my thoughts,
for goodness sake,
I'm swimming in regret,
in a deep pool of sorrow.
I shouldn't be feeling this old yet.
I'm praying for peace,
it seems to elude me tonite.
my thoughts will not cease.
There are too many questions,
I have left unanswered,
afraid of the reality,
that those answers might bring.
But for some reason I belive,
that those answers wouldn't be such a bad thing.
1 comment:
I was just thinking about how I'm thinking too much to sleep right now. Right after I looked at the time on your post I looked at the time here... it was exactly 2:18.
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