more lessons

well, this process of learning, fucking up, learning, fucking up again....is getting old. I know that the only way we learn is by making mistakes but at the same time sometimes i wish i was perfect so that i would know everything and not have to try so hard...but then i wouldn't be living i guess. Things have been happening so fast for me and in such a whirlwind that I can hardly keep up. My life has gotten so much better and so exciting that even though i don't know what will happen with him or him or her, it's ok, even though its really not...lol theres some contradiction for you! LOL but anyhow, that's the best part of life, even though i may disagree at times, the fun stuff is the stuff you have yet to figure out and don't know. so.... i'll survive not knowing, wondering every day until something happens so i can find out the real answer. Thank God I have friends to discover life and the little things about it with.